Oh happy day, it is good to be back with y’all!
I know I only missed 1 week of posting, but it has been a horrendous week. I got suddenly sick. I mean, no prior symptoms, nothing at all, and in about 30 – 60 minute span of time, I went from feeling ok, to bleh, to full on fever, aches, get me to bed so I can sleep this off sick.
I have to say, I haven’t been so sick with a high fever in a long, long time. It was the strangest thing too, completely normal one minute, completely not the next.
If you will recall, my last two blog posts have been about not hitting the wall, taking care of yourself, and learning how to not running on empty If you missed them, you can find them here:
I felt like I had been doing a great job of utilizing A.P.E. = Ask – Prioritize – Evaluate when assessing my weekly calendar and responsibilities. I had lightened my load, set new priorities, and adjusted goals to a slower pace, and was moving forward. Then, I found myself not able to do anything but sleep. Finally when the fever broke, I was still not able to do anything other than just rest. Forced, recovery rest is so not fun. It is, in fact boring, yet necessary!
As I continued to recover, I felt like I had waited the appropriate amount of time to rejoin the land of the living and pick up my regular activities, however, my body felt differently. No, I didn’t have a relapse, but getting back to the normal routine of things will take a little longer than I expected.
Yet, it has been in this recovery time that I have been learning even more lessons. Some lessons I am still processing, but there is at least one I am ready to share, it is: take time and rest. This may seem silly, but rest is hard for me. This is not the first time I have mentioned resting is hard for me, but I realized, it is necessary in order to bring quality to the things I do. I realized if I will clear my calendar for friends in need or people in the hospital, I should probably clear my calendar for myself too.
As I was recovering in bed, not really able to do much besides sleep and eat, I was feeling incredibly bad about having to cancel 3 meetings I was responsible for and letting those involved down. They of course were all fine and wanted me well, I however was beating myself up. I had to come to terms that sometimes even ministry needs to wait so the minister can care for themselves.
How did I come to terms with that thought? The Lord ministered to me in my time of sickness and encouraged me that it was important to care for myself. He reminded me that even Jesus took time to recharge, rest, and renew.
If it was good enough for Jesus, well then, it should be good enough for me too! Right?
Jesus whispered to my heart, that there will always be opportunities for ministry and people to minister too, and if I want to participate I must be rested, healed, and as whole as possible. In my book, Milk, Eggs, Prophecy: A Healthy New Take on the Radically Ordinary Nature of Prophecy I share my thoughts on how Jesus is our model for the way we need to live life.
Jesus’ whole purpose for being here on earth was to save us and to show us that we too could live life and do the things He did. Jesus is a Rock Star! He had it all and He did it all, and He showed us how we could too. Jesus modeled rest, taking time to recharge and to fill up. There are several passages of Scripture that take about the times when Jesus withdrew (Matthew 14:22-23; Luke 6:12-13; Mark 6:30-32)
As I have been taking it slower in my recovery, Matthew 14:22-23 is the one that keeps coming to mind.
Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd. After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray. Later that night, he was there alone, (Matthew 14:22-23)
These verses in Matthew follow the feeding of the 5,000, and I am sure after a day of teaching and ministry that Jesus and the disciples were tired, maybe even exhausted. Jesus sent the disciples away to rest and regroup, while He dismissed the crowds and He went away by himself to do the same.
Again, if it’s good enough for Jesus it should be good enough for us. Don’t you think?
Before I go, I need to give a shout to my baby girl who isn’t much of a baby anymore. Today, March 18th she turns 21!!!
Happy Birthday Brandi! I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always, as long as I’m living, my baby you’ll be.
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